I was writing a letter to my email list this morning, telling them about the ways they can help me go to France and how I’ll be donating a portion of the proceeds to the Creative Spirit Art Centre and trying to explain why that’s important to me.
I realized though that none of you knew me 5 years ago. You don’t truly get how f***ing awesome it is for me to be in this place.
And I wanted to share that with you. I want you to understand why this is totally blowing my mind.
Warnings, Caveats, etc.
This video is passionate and emotional. I almost cry at one point. I talk about depression and suicide. I talk about being very ill. If these things are upsetting or triggery for you, please do not watch it.
Also, the illnesses I had (and still have, but much more managed) are Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia – I forget that not everyone knows my medical history. I couldn’t get out of bed because I was sick, and so that was making me depressed, not the other way around, yes?
It’s a long video – over 7 minutes. (I know, I know, it’s only supposed to be max 2 minutes or whatever or no one will watch. So shoot me.)
I needed to say these things – I need you to understand that your dreams can come true. I need you to understand that hope is important and that you shouldn’t give up on yourself.