I kind of had an epiphany last night. It was an unexpected one, from a conversation where I least expected it, but it basically amounts to this: I need to learn how to be happy. But I definitely don’t need to change or fix who I am. Now I know all of you are sitting [...]
I woke up this morning absolutely fed up. For the past 3 years, I’ve been reading self help books and books on personal development, and books on abundance and the Law of Attraction and spirituality and god only knows what else. I’ve listened to courses, I’ve read blog posts, I’ve gone to webinars. I’ve done/tried/read/heard [...]
I went to life drawing last night, for the first time in a long time. Ughhh, boy am I out of practice. Yeesh. A few things happened last night though that got me thinking this morning. Turns out, I’m pretty lame actually While most of the class was 50 plus, after class was over, I [...]
What would happen if you decided to do nothing for a day? How would you feel about yourself? Lazy? Useless? Incompetent? I’m pretty sure I would. I’m absolutely awful at doing nothing all day, not just because I’m a compulsive do-er, but because my sense of value is inherently tied up in what I do. [...]
I have spent the last 3 years trying to fix myself, trying to become someone else. I’ll love myself when I’m not broken, I always told myself. If I could just fix this pattern, or get over that fear, or be strong or whatever, then I could love myself and I’d be happy. I’d be [...]
This morning, I have run out of patience with myself. I am tired of hearing myself say I’m stuck. I don’t want to be stuck anymore. I don’t want to talk about being stuck anymore. I just want to be un-stuck. And for everything to be okay again. This whole, “I feel like a frigging [...]
I’m in a place right now, where I feel like nothing is going right. I mean, I know there are some things that are going right, but it just doesn’t feel like it. I feel like I’m being blocked left and right. No commissions are coming in, or they fall through, or no one ever [...]
