This is it. Today’s the day. My tuition is due by the end of the day, and as the fancy pink graphic below shows, I’m just $363 from my goal. BAM! That feels good. As I wrote the other day, I’ve been working hard to make sure that my journey is one of love, not fear – that my actions are always rooted in love of myself and … [Read more...] about The last stand: $363, love, fear and baby steps
I am 3 days and $900 away from paying my tuition + rent to return to France. Of the total almost $7000 I thought I’d have to pay, having $900 left feels like something akin to a miracle. Between scholarships, sponsorships and generous donations, I am thisclose to officially being able to start my journey. The most beautiful and magical part … [Read more...] about A journey of love, not fear.
There's a lot of talk on the internet about finding your passion and turning that into a business. Obviously I think this is great, since I did it. But sometimes it can be misleading. Passion experts & self help gurus talk about finding the thing that makes you leap out of bed every morning, excited and ready to take on the … [Read more...] about What no one ever tells you about creative passion
Fabeku wrote a fabulous post the other day about slowly forgetting about the things that light you up. For him, it was dance. It reminded me that I hadn't been to dance class in 5 weeks. For 9 years, I didn't dance. I got sick, and that was it, over. God, how I loved to dance. Ballet was my thing at the time. I wish I had pictures I could … [Read more...] about The Sunday Hug: Forgotten Dreams
Passion. We say the word and envision sparks, desire, an all-consuming burning love for something. We picture drama and fireworks. True, sometimes passion can be like that. It's all over the movies, so it must happen sometimes, right? But what does it mean to be passionate about something? What does it mean to be passionate about your job, … [Read more...] about What it means to have passion
Now that I've finished the application to study in France, there's suddenly a lot of empty space in my head. And since nature abhors a vacuum, it's being filled with the clamoring of things that wish to be healed. You'll recall that I took September off on retreat and that was good. It helped me build up the energy I needed to begin to heal some … [Read more...] about You cannot hate yourself into happiness.
Today's edition of the Sunday Hug is a little belated as I've spent the whole day in the studio, working feverishly to finish the paintings for my application to study in France. Fingers crossed I'll have it done by Friday. So this is just a quick hug, and a hug I don't quite have the words for either. But that in no way means it's an … [Read more...] about The Sunday Hug: Slightly Belated
Because sometimes, life is hard and you just need a hug. This is the Inaugural Sunday Hug. I thought of it at 7am this morning and fell in love with it. Yes, you can now come here every Sunday and get a hug. Rock on. I was feeling a teensy* bit discouraged yesterday. *That is a tiny bit of an understatement. I think I spent the majority of my … [Read more...] about The Sunday Hug: Motivation
Let me tell you a story about a very naive, young artist... Once upon a time, my art felt incredibly meaningful. I felt like I was going to change the world, to connect with people, to help people. I was watching how my art healed me and I knew, with a fierce pride, that my art could heal others. I believed in it. The first few months of my … [Read more...] about Meaning, love notes & ornery assholes
First, can we get some celebratory champagne here? We have raised $1061.84 which is the cost of Hannah's dance classes. We are sending the registration form today. Hannah is going back to dance. She is going back to dance. Which is awesome and amazing and so many wonderful things. And Hannah is excited. She is incredibly excited. But … [Read more...] about Helping Hannah Dance, part 2.
Again and again, I need to be reminded of who I'm painting for.It's so easy to start painting to impress someone else - critics, gallery owners, even fans of my work. You start to listen to too many outside opinions and you forget to listen to your own.Robert Genn says artists need to be rugged individualists. You must be your own judge of what is … [Read more...] about My life’s in my hands
Actually falling in love again, to be exact. I'm not sure if this happens to other artists, but do you ever create something, finish it and then instantly hate it? Because the finished product looks absolutely nothing like the vision you had in your head? Yeah, this painting was one of those for me: I can't even remember why I hated it. I … [Read more...] about Falling in love.