Yesterday was a somewhat stressful day for me. I had to write an essay for a scholarship for France and I was digging my heels in big time - turns out, I don't like describing my goals and dreams to a complete stranger and then having those goals and dreams be judged as to whether they're worth money or not. So eventually I finished it, with … [Read more...] about How to not beat yourself into happiness.
Now that I've finished the application to study in France, there's suddenly a lot of empty space in my head. And since nature abhors a vacuum, it's being filled with the clamoring of things that wish to be healed. You'll recall that I took September off on retreat and that was good. It helped me build up the energy I needed to begin to heal some … [Read more...] about You cannot hate yourself into happiness.
Hannah really wanted to share how grateful she is for all of your support, and so I asked her to write a little something to share with you. She's written it so beautifully, that's about all the introduction it needs. Take it away, Hannah. "I’ve tried to write this message a few times over now. Even now, as I have committed to this being my last … [Read more...] about A thank you from Hannah
Sometimes I wonder if I am, in fact, one of the densest people alive. Really and truly. But maybe this is just the lesson I need to learn right now. Again and again, if I don't do anything creative for longer than 3 days, I'm seriously cranky. The sad thing is, I then wonder why I'm cranky. Then once I start creating, I'm miraculously cheery. Then … [Read more...] about Remembering my center
I had a realization this morning. A really obvious one actually, but I can be dense sometimes.When I do something for me and my own reasons, I succeed. When I do something to prove myself, or get approval, or from a sense of guilt, I never get anywhere.Really simple, but it explains a lot of my life. I've been baffled for months with the ease with … [Read more...] about Doing it for me
Don't worry, I'm not going to start telling you that you need to eat organic foods and reduce your carbon footprint - many others are doing that far better than I could. No, I'm talking about my business, my career.Lately, I've woken up to the merits of organic growth.Note: this post will ramble and potentially make very little sense. I'm just kind … [Read more...] about Going organic
I feel as though something needs to radically change in my life. I think something needs to radically change in my approach to life. Because I am sick and freaking tired of running around in circles, constantly coming back to this feeling. I'm not doing the things that make me happy. And yet I'm not quite prepared to fully face the reasons I'm … [Read more...] about Reptilian brain, meet life.
I kind of had an epiphany last night. It was an unexpected one, from a conversation where I least expected it, but it basically amounts to this: I need to learn how to be happy. But I definitely don't need to change or fix who I am. Now I know all of you are sitting there going, "Duhh." But this is pretty revolutionary for me. I've always felt … [Read more...] about Topsy Turvy.
I was writing in my journal this morning about success, a topic that I continually struggle with. I've been trying to reframe it, into something I can grasp. I think part of my problem is that I see success as so far away, so distant that I can't figure out what I want because I just assume that I can't get it. And then I wrote this: I want … [Read more...] about On my own terms.
She probably knows something you don't. I met the most marvellous woman this weekend. Charlotte is her name. Every single Saturday, she shows up at the Queen Street arts festival, rain or shine, and stays all day to sell her art. She is 93 years old, and has more life than most 18 year olds. The twinkle in her eye could blind you from 20 … [Read more...] about Always listen to the happy 93 year old.