Today’s hug is for the parts of you that know you have something to share with the world, but really struggle to do it. Maybe you’re scared of promoting yourself. Maybe you’re scared of asking for the money. Maybe you’re scared of doing the thing itself – starting the blog, starting the painting, starting the [...]
Tag Archives: Fear
Reclaiming.
October 1, 2010 – 11:01 am
It’s been a long month. I’m still not sure if I’m ready to write this, ready to be here. I feel raw, vulnerable. Putting my Self, my words out in the world right now – it’s scary. There’s a hard knot in the pit of my stomach that only wants us to keep on hiding. [...]
The Self Promotion Monsters
April 18, 2010 – 12:22 pm
So on Friday, I announced that I’m doing a thing – a live painting marathon and auction. Which on the one hand, I’m totally excited for. And on the other hand – oh my god. So nervous! It’s just triggered all of my fears and all of my monsters. Self promotion It kinda makes me [...]
The Resistance
March 3, 2010 – 12:42 pm
Fear. You don’t think about it constantly controlling your day to day life, do you? Or maybe you do, I don’t know. I know I can get pretty freaked out in certain situations, but I never really thought about fear controlling my entire life. I’m slowly discovering that it does. It makes a lot of [...]
Insecure Pants
February 17, 2010 – 7:45 am
I’m sitting in my new living room, listening to the wind and snow rage outside. I woke up wearing my insecure pants. They’ve been on a lot lately. I think it has something to do with February. I’m counting down the days until March, when spring starts to whisper it’s promise of warmer days and [...]
Reptilian brain, meet life.
January 28, 2010 – 8:22 am
I feel as though something needs to radically change in my life. I think something needs to radically change in my approach to life. Because I am sick and freaking tired of running around in circles, constantly coming back to this feeling. I’m not doing the things that make me happy. And yet I’m not [...]
Overwhelmed by overwhelm?
January 11, 2010 – 5:30 pm
The past 24 hours have been kind of nuts. Just one of those days where everything happens at once and new things come up and you need to re-evaluate because where you thought you were going has disappeared and you need to formulate a new plan. Cool. I’m down with the doing things – I [...]
Asleep at the wheel.
December 16, 2009 – 7:38 pm
I’ve been awake since 3am, my mind churning. Every single cell in my body is yelling “Stop! Turn around! Go back!” On November 20th, I finished my job at the smoothie bar and health food store. I quit with the intention of following my passion, my art. Do you know how much art I’ve done [...]
Believing in myself.
November 10, 2009 – 8:11 am
So do you all remember my personal ad for a new job? Yesterday, I started a new one. And I love it. It’s pretty much perfect for me. It’s so perfect, I have to keep pinching myself. The thing is though, I didn’t quit the smoothie job. I just reduced my hours. Don’t worry – [...]
Being seen.
August 25, 2009 – 7:17 am
Apparently, I have issues with it. I never even realized, except when I was writing in my journal this morning, I wrote, out of nowhere, “There’s lots I could be doing to market myself, but I’m choosing not to.” And I sat and stared at that sentence for a solid 5 minutes. Because: 1. I [...]
