This is it. Today’s the day. My tuition is due by the end of the day, and as the fancy pink graphic below shows, I’m just $363 from my goal. BAM! That feels good. As I wrote the other day, I’ve been working hard to make sure that my journey is one of love, [...]
Tag Archives: Fear
A journey of love, not fear.
January 18, 2012 – 3:22 pm
I am 3 days and $900 away from paying my tuition + rent to return to France. Of the total almost $7000 I thought I’d have to pay, having $900 left feels like something akin to a miracle. Between scholarships, sponsorships and generous donations, I am thisclose to officially being able to start my journey. [...]
Time to assimilate 2011
December 23, 2011 – 10:35 am
This has been one huge, crazy, scary year. It’s been amazing and terrifying and difficult all at the same time. I have had moments of blissful joy and moments of gut-wrenching sadness. I have grieved. I have dreamed. I have worked, hard, for what I want. And now as the year wraps up, I’m cranky. [...]
“Live the questions.”
December 2, 2011 – 6:49 am
“…I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to [...]
Sometimes, smaller is better.
November 2, 2011 – 11:00 am
I am exceptionally good at freaking myself out. One morning, I sat down and calculated the cost of my returning to France next year to continue studying. As I’d suspected, it’s around $20,000. Ay carumba. All those zeros still freak me out. And while it’s not that much considering the quality of education I’ll be [...]
How to not beat yourself into happiness.
March 25, 2011 – 8:56 am
Yesterday was a somewhat stressful day for me. I had to write an essay for a scholarship for France and I was digging my heels in big time – turns out, I don’t like describing my goals and dreams to a complete stranger and then having those goals and dreams be judged as to whether [...]
What no one ever tells you about creative passion
February 15, 2011 – 2:06 pm
There’s a lot of talk on the internet about finding your passion and turning that into a business. Obviously I think this is great, since I did it. But sometimes it can be misleading. Passion experts & self help gurus talk about finding the thing that makes you leap out of bed every morning, excited [...]
A Knight In Shining Armour
February 8, 2011 – 7:04 am
The day I was accepted into Studio Escalier in France, I applied for the Elizabeth Greenshields award. It’s a $12,500 grant awarded to realist artists for various reasons. I was hoping to use money to offset the majority of my costs this summer. Yesterday, I received a note informing me that I hadn’t been successful. [...]
Stretching: It’s now my full-time job.
January 28, 2011 – 2:10 pm
I’m kind of glad January is almost over. It’s not that it hasn’t been amazing and fabulous. It’s just been…a lot. A lot of scary. A whole helluva lot of stretching. Stretching past fear, past self-imposed limitations, past my ideas of what is possible or not. On December 24th, in “The Crisis is Over” I [...]
Dealing with money overwhelm
December 10, 2010 – 10:02 am
I haven’t posted in a few days because I’ve been having a meltdown a few fears. January 5th is fast approaching. That’s the day I’m informed whether I’ve been accepted into the program in France or not. Quite frankly (and surprisingly), I’m not worried about that part. It’s totally out of my hands, so there [...]
