Good bye. I can’t find you, Dearest love, Where have you gone? Hidden away Behind some great Rock, Smirking, smug at Your clever camouflage. Mocking, taunting With your cries of Caring. You don’t care. And I know it. But I believe you anyway, Because I want to. I want to pretend That somebody cares. But [...]
Tag Archives: Emotional healing
Facing the Past: Part 1
April 6, 2009 – 8:14 am
Dear God. Let me disappear. Please, dear God, please. Let me evaporate And become nothing. Let me be empty, Painless, Invisible, Weightless, Dead. I didn’t choose this life, This body, This nightmare. So let it be over. And let me sleep. Don’t make me do this, God. I’ll do it. I swear to God, I’ll [...]
Processing, processing, pattern.
March 11, 2009 – 12:16 pm
Overwhelming sadness this morning. It sits on my chest, like a heaviness over my heart. Lots of stuff coming out. One shift triggers another, which triggers another. It’s like playing a painful game of dominoes, except my heart is what’s being crushed at the end. It’s too much. I’m finding it very difficult to face [...]
In Defense of Me.
December 8, 2008 – 10:01 am
Okay so I’m in the mood for a bit of Bob ranting today. I guess ’cause this one is more painful than most, and I’m hoping that if I say it aloud (or type it, as it were), some of the shame will disappear, and it might lose some of its power. Bob is a [...]
