Three years ago, I moved out of my parents' home and across the country. Last week, I came back home to stay for a bit before I go to France. It’s been 2 years since I set foot in my old bedroom. As I lay in bed the first night, I was deeply struck by a realization. Giving myself hope Eight months after I got sick, I was home alone one day, … [Read more...] about Remembering to dream
This is it. Today’s the day. My tuition is due by the end of the day, and as the fancy pink graphic below shows, I’m just $363 from my goal. BAM! That feels good. As I wrote the other day, I’ve been working hard to make sure that my journey is one of love, not fear – that my actions are always rooted in love of myself and … [Read more...] about The last stand: $363, love, fear and baby steps
(To read part 1, a look back at 2011, click here.) I welcomed the New Year quietly. I spent the evening curled up on the couch, sipping martinis, and watching my boyfriend play Skyrim* and mulling over the year behind and the year ahead. *It is awesome. Don’t even judge me. As the hours counted down, I felt filled with sadness. I’ve spent … [Read more...] about Closing & Opening, Part 2 – Themes, dreams & plans for 2012
(To read part 2, a look ahead to 2012, click here.) Well, 2011, you've been one helluva year, haven't you? *shakes head* I still can’t believe this year even happened. So much of my life changed. I feel like one cycle of my life has ended and a new one has begun. A decade ago, I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia. … [Read more...] about Closing & Opening, Part 1 – A look back at 2011
This has been one huge, crazy, scary year. It’s been amazing and terrifying and difficult all at the same time. I have had moments of blissful joy and moments of gut-wrenching sadness. I have grieved. I have dreamed. I have worked, hard, for what I want. And now as the year wraps up, I’m cranky. Really cranky. I know, right? What is up … [Read more...] about Time to assimilate 2011
(I wrote this months ago and filed it away in a random folder on my computer, titled "Manifesto". I just found it again and knew I had to share it.) I believe that there is a light inside of you, just waiting to shine. I believe that there is something inside you, dying to thrive. I believe that no matter what kind of shitty hand you’ve been … [Read more...] about Come on, show me your light.
I have a plan! A big, exciting, terrifying, mind-boggling plan. It’s my 2 year plan, in fact. I’m going back to France. But this time, I’m selling all my furniture, giving up my apartment and bringing my boyfriend with me. For the next 2 years, we’ll be splitting our time between Canada and France, while I continue to study at Studio Escalier. … [Read more...] about Big plans!
I was suddenly, radically clear the other day on how I want my business to evolve. Which is scary. And I promptly freaked out. Because when you have clarity, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from moving forward. You can see the next step right in front of you. You know it's the right direction. You know it's where your heart is … [Read more...] about Looking to the future
Dear, lovely people who read this blog and hang out with me on Facebook and Twitter: I need your help. I am the worst person at asking for help ever but there you go - I need it. Operation Shine Operation Shine is what I've internally named my trip to France (background story here). This whole journey has not just been about my being … [Read more...] about Operation Shine needs your help
Here's the part of dreams coming true that no one ever warns you about: Oh. My. Gawd. Is it ever terrifying. Two weeks ago, I wasn't sure I was going to make my rent. Now I'm just $870 short of paying my $3500 tuition. I'm more than 75% there, thanks to so much generosity and support. Don't get me wrong - I am overjoyed. But I don't … [Read more...] about The Sunday Hug: The Difficulty of Dreams
Lovely, lovely people, I am so pleased to say that I have already passed the halfway mark in raising my tuition money to France. HALF WAY! Can we just pause for a second, take a deep breath, and appreciate how epic that is? Because all of that happened in 3 days. Three days. Dude. Rock on all of you. The "Dreams Can Come True" fundraiser … [Read more...] about 6 Days: Can you help me get to France?
I was writing a letter to my email list this morning, telling them about the ways they can help me go to France and how I'll be donating a portion of the proceeds to the Creative Spirit Art Centre and trying to explain why that's important to me. I realized though that none of you knew me 5 years ago. You don't truly get how f***ing awesome it … [Read more...] about Why you should never, ever give up.
As this year winds down, I've been thinking a lot about my plans and goals for the year ahead. I'm not really a goals-oriented person, per say - I find it hard to stick to them - but I am thinking about the directions I want to move in. It seems that when I wasn't looking, my brain made an executive decision - I don't want a traditional art … [Read more...] about An unconventional career