I’m dancing again. Very few people know that when I was younger, I used to dance all the time – I was a classically trained ballet dancer and I loved it. But then I got sick, and I had to let that passion go. I thought that door had closed forever. If someone had told [...]
Tag Archives: Creativity
Damage control
April 26, 2010 – 12:55 pm
I started painting this morning and 40 minutes in, realized I’d made a real mess of things. Sometimes it happens. You get bogged down in the details, and you lose sight of your greater vision. Whenever this happens, I sit down and brainstorm what I can do to save the painting. In some cases “save [...]
Sleeeepy
April 20, 2010 – 7:03 pm
It seems that a focused creative output has some side effects. Since the first week of April, I’ve finished 4 paintings and I’m about half way through 2 more. I’m feeling really good about my productivity right now. I seem to have found the sweet spot – a routine that works well for my creativity [...]
Nourishment for the soul
April 4, 2010 – 2:26 pm
In my current extremely burnt out state, I’ve been contemplating ways to prevent ending up here again, which brought me to ask myself the question – what nourishes my soul? What makes me feel alive? Happy? Exuberant? What gets me really excited about life? And how can I add more of that to my life? [...]
Creative Self Doubt
March 9, 2010 – 3:11 pm
Painful, racking self doubt today. The crippling kind that makes you question whether your art even has any value at all. The kind that is so hard to refute, so hard to argue with because it’s so damn logical. I think this is just one of those creative job hazards – when you’re making it [...]
A personal ad to my creativity
December 23, 2009 – 7:38 am
Today, I’m going to write a very, very personal ad. It’s a little bit of a desperate personal ad. I’d almost classify this as a prayer, or maybe one of those wishes that you hope if you wish really really hard, it’ll come true. This is a personal ad to my art. More specifically, to [...]
Falling in love.
December 11, 2009 – 10:31 am
Actually falling in love again, to be exact. I’m not sure if this happens to other artists, but do you ever create something, finish it and then instantly hate it? Because the finished product looks absolutely nothing like the vision you had in your head? Yeah, this painting was one of those for me: I [...]
A free girl.
November 16, 2009 – 5:36 pm
I did it! I quit the smoothie job! Hurrah! (Unfortunately, due to my ulcer, I can’t even get mildly drunk in celebration, but I’m totally making myself some fair trade Belgian hot chocolate with Madagascar vanilla and cream tonight. Hells yes.) It’s amazing how different I feel, how much lighter my heart feels. And as [...]
Finishing.
November 9, 2009 – 7:30 am
I noticed something the other day, something that I’ve never really noticed before. I’m really bad at finishing things. I’ve always got a million projects on the go, but I’ll be damned if I can get any of them finished. I can’t believe I never noticed this before. I mean, I’ve been doing it my [...]
Back on the horse.
November 3, 2009 – 9:25 am
Since I moved out here at the end of July, my sense of motivation and ambition, my get-up-and-go, had pretty much gotten up and gone. I’ve been drifting along, working a job I don’t enjoy, dissipating my energy, starting to paint again, but not really getting anywhere. I’ve been pretty much directionless. Wandering, like a [...]
