Ughhh.

The exhaustion is starting to catch up with me. I woke up today and just could not bare to drag my butt out of bed. But drag my butt out I did.

I’m working about 15-18 hours a day – start at 6 or 7am and go till anywhere from 10pm until 11:30pm. That is a long freaking day. And that’s usually 5, maybe 6 days a week. Soon, it’ll be 7 if I intend on finishing these pieces in time.

I’m starting to stress out. Not a lot, just enough that at night I’m dreaming I’ve taken up cocaine to stay awake and then wake up at 3:30am freaking out because oh my god, of course you can’t sleep, Sarah, you shouldn’t do cocaine right before going to bed.

For real. I spent 10 minutes really annoyed at myself for starting to do cocaine, and wasting all my money. Coke’s expensive, man. I had just started trying to figure out how I was going to quit when I realized I was awake and that I was not, in fact, a crack whore.

Fun times, kids, fun times.

I actually didn’t even know how I was going to paint today. I stared at the canvas and hated it. I loathed it. I wanted to set it on fire, because I did not want to paint that background or fix her face or anything. I just wanted it to go away. My body is tired, and my legs are aching from the way I have to sit at my easel. It’s 12pm and I’ve already been painting for 6 hours. It’s like my body is throwing a temper tantrum.

I just want to sleep.  However, with only 32 days left, I don’t really have time to sleep anymore. So I had to find a way to cheer myself up.

Solution?

Billy Connolly.

Yep, stand up comedy is my solution to burnout. It’s so much harder to be tired, stressed out and pissed off if you’re peeing yourself laughing. It won’t cure everything, and it won’t make me paint any faster, but life seems a lot less difficult when you’re laughing by yourself in your room like a crazy person and enjoying yourself.

So that I’m not laughing entirely by myself…here’s my favourite Billy Connolly song.

Have a fabulous day!

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