We interrupt our usual programming for a quick dose of alpaca!

Confession time: I am a complete and total dork. Seriously. You don’t even understand how dork-ified I actually am.

Do you know why?

Because I love alpacas.

Yes, those really silly looking, slightly warped llamas, with big dopey eyes and really fluffy, super soft fur, and bundles of love. Oh, and they hum. Doesn’t that make them better? They hum.

I’m secretly an alpaca whisperer. Its just that no one knows. (Uhh, not even the alpacas.)

Anyways, because I’m have an eternal undying love for them, a while ago, I went to hang out with some alpacas at a local farm with my boyfriend and best friend. (Yes, they let me do that. No, I don’t know why.)

I frolicked with alpacas for like…2 hours. Heaven, I tell you, heaven. One even tried to rape my boyfriend. But that’s a story for another day. (I’d like to add that that part wasn’t so heavenly. More just side-splittingly funny.)

Anyways.

Since I had like 200 photos of these alpacas and I didn’t just want them sitting there, going to waste, I decided to draw them.

So for the next little while, a couple times a week, there’s going to be some alpaca drawings coming up on this blog, for sale. They’re just little, 4″x6″, so they’ll fit in a standard photo frame. Although, I’ll probably mat them in black for you, ’cause that looks nicer, so let’s say they’ll fit in an 8″x10″ frame when they’re ready.

And they’re gonna go for $25 US. And until December 15th, they come with free shipping anywhere in North America. (I apologize to all Europeans who stumble upon this blog. But I promise, I’ll charge you as little as possible to get it there.) After December 15th, shipping is gonna be $5.

So here it is: Alpaca #1: Alpaca Posing Majestically

$25.00 US + Free Shipping

Isn’t she just beautiful? So noble, so majestic, so slightly dopey looking. I love her.

Anyways! Back to our usual programming!

Awesome things that happened this week.

Awesome thing#1: I drew alpacas. Nuff said.

Awesome thing #2: I’ve decided to redo the Artist’s Way. Those marching orders I got yesterday? Well they’ve been continuing. And now they want me to do the Artist’s Way again. Considering I haven’t done it in a few years, it’ll be interesting to go back. But boy, did I have resistance to it.

Admittedly, this book is my bible. I love it. It’s the only reason I survived high school. It’s where I learned about self work and self healing and how to explore your own issues and wounds in a safe, comforting, not scary way. It was about making stuff to heal yourself, which was a fairly novel concept to me.

And yet despite all this, still I had resistance. Especially to the morning pages. (For those of you who have never done the Artist’s Way, morning pages are 3 pages you write every morning, kind of like a journal. But you have to write 3 pages, of whatever is on your mind.)

Now Sarah, you might say, you told us yesterday that you write in your journal every morning. So why in the heck would I have resistance to morning pages? Isn’t it the same thing?

It is and it isn’t. My journal writing now is kind of like a bastardized version of morning pages. Because I only write one page, max. And by doing that, I can sometimes pass over the icky things that I really don’t want to think about. I can ignore my pain, but lie to myself and tell myself that I’m listening to it, because hey! I wrote in my journal. I get to trick myself and pretend I’m being nice to me without all the actual work attached to it.

The thing is though, I never realized that until this morning when I did make myself write those 3 pages. And as I’m writing and saying that I couldn’t possibly write 3 whole pages of stuff, suddenly all of this stuff came out. Stuff that I was angry about, stuff that I was hurt by. All of these old wounds came scrambling out of my pen and onto the page. I couldn’t believe it.

And I felt so much better after. So I will keep doing the morning pages, even though there’s going to be intense resistance. But I’m ready for it. I’m willing to listen to me now. Its about time too.

Awesome thing #3: I’m giving myself a break. Which I never do and I’m super bad at, but I know I need it right now. I am so terrible for putting insane and undue amounts of pressure on myself, and beating myself up over not doing getting enough done. (Yes, that’s a pattern. There’s some big stuck there.)
But I’m making myself take the pressure off for a whole month. So let’s see what happens. I’m thinking its going to be really, reallly good for me.

Awesome thing #4: I got some work! I’m actually building a website for my mum’s boss. Which is cool. It means some extra money, so that’s always nice. Plus, it could be kind of fun.

And I think that’s it for this week. Alpacas kind of take the cake. I’m mostly just totally excited about that.
Got something really awesome that happened in your week? Leave ‘er in the comments. I’d love to hear about it.

Have a wonderful weekend! <3