Category Archives: This is me working on my stuff.

In Good Company Project – Sharing stories of depression & anxiety

Anxiety and depression. Not something we all talk about around the dinner table. And yet, over a third of us have experienced one or the other, and often both. I’d like to introduce you to the In Good Company Project. This is a wonderful site run by my lovely friend, Kate Harding. In her words: [...]

The balance between art & biz: A schedule-making process

I don’t know about the rest of you creative folks out there, but finding a balance between art-making, marketing and admin is sometimes the hardest job of all. I love making the art, but without the marketing and the admin, it’ll never go out the door. I get torn between love of one thing and [...]

“Live the questions.”

“…I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to [...]

Permission to fail, granted.

Five weeks ago, I began the process of healing my body and mind from past sexual abuse. Some people in the comments have assumed it happened as a child. It didn’t. It happened 5 years ago. I was incredibly naive and had no idea what was happening to me or how to explain it. I [...]

Sometimes backwards is the right way to go

I’ve had a few people look at me cockeyed since announcing on Wednesday that I was going to back off of my self-promotion efforts because of my healing process. “So what you’re trying to tell me is, that even though you need $18,000 to get to France this summer, you’re going to stop promoting your [...]

How to promote yourself while falling apart emotionally.

So I’m just going to out and say it: Things have not been pretty here at S. M. Lacy Art headquarters the past few weeks. Quite frankly, I’m sort of falling apart. I leave for France 2 months today. Which is all kinds of fabulous and terrifying at once. Mostly fabulous. Except for the part [...]

Unraveling Beauty

I have my modeling audition today. I’m not really nervous anymore. (What’s the worst that can happen? They say no? Big whoop. I’m more worried I’ll put my foot in my mouth, or faceplant it.) There are a lot of tangled threads here that I’m still working out. Thread #1 – The Idea that I [...]

The Crisis is Over: My Vision for 2011

I try to think of my life as a journey, an adventure. At the beginning of each year, I like to pick a general direction for the coming year. Last year, I struggled to find my word for the year. I knew what it felt like, but I couldn’t think of the word to describe [...]

On time management & being human

As we move towards a new year with new goals, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I spend my days. I’ve spent the last week tracking how I spend my time. It’s actually rather shocking how little I can get done in a day. Or not. For some reason, I think I have superhuman [...]

You cannot hate yourself into happiness.

Now that I’ve finished the application to study in France, there’s suddenly a lot of empty space in my head. And since nature abhors a vacuum, it’s being filled with the clamoring of things that wish to be healed. You’ll recall that I took September off on retreat and that was good. It helped me [...]