I wrote a post a little while ago about making mistakes, self-criticism and why sucking at your art doesn't say anything bad about you. I've been talking about these ideas with my father a lot, since he's on his own creative journey with the bass guitar. After writing him a mini-novel over email, I realized I still had some thoughts about … [Read more...] about On being a good student (or, again, why no kittens will die)
Note: I originally sent this to my newsletter list and it got a very strong response. Several people requested that I post it to the blog so that they could share it, so here it is! If you'd like to sign up to my newsletter list, you can do so by clicking here. During my time studying in France, I learned a lot of important things. One of the … [Read more...] about Mistakes, cheap tricks and magic bullets.
I learned a valuable lesson this week, the kind of lesson you can only learn the hard way. Yesterday, I spoke about my experience with a gallery owner who was unhappy with the work I brought her because it wasn’t summery enough. Unfortunately, she couldn’t articulate that, and instead dismissed all of my work as grim, dark and depressing. I … [Read more...] about The one that got away.
I think this morning I've finally made peace with what happened at the gallery. It's taken me 5 days of processing and meeting myself where I am - even if that means I'm cranky as hell. Or hiding under my sheets. But I tried to meet it all with mindful awareness, and just let myself be wherever I needed to be.This meant that most of the week, I … [Read more...] about Apparently, my art is appalling. Interesting.
I just want to thank everyone for the support and the comments yesterday. It was really, truly helpful.I also think I figured out what was going on internally and why this was bothering me so much. Because as so many people have said, it's just one person. One. Person. So it didn't even make sense to me why it was getting to me so badly.This … [Read more...] about A stamp of approval
I went to talk to the gallery today about the pieces I’d dropped off on Monday (the gallery owner had been sick all week.) Of the 6 pieces, I left with her, she sent 4 home with me, saying they were “no good”. Too dark, too grim, not colourful enough. People don’t want art like that in their homes. I was told there was no feeling in them, and that … [Read more...] about Back to the studio
I had a realization this morning. A really obvious one actually, but I can be dense sometimes.When I do something for me and my own reasons, I succeed. When I do something to prove myself, or get approval, or from a sense of guilt, I never get anywhere.Really simple, but it explains a lot of my life. I've been baffled for months with the ease with … [Read more...] about Doing it for me
Two very loaded words, I know. And they're tossed around so much that we don't even pay them that much attention anymore. We just assume that they're Important. The thing is though - what do they mean? What is success? What is failure? They're tricky questions to answer. Is success making hundreds of thousands of dollars or millions? Or billions? … [Read more...] about Success & failure
In my current extremely burnt out state, I've been contemplating ways to prevent ending up here again, which brought me to ask myself the question - what nourishes my soul?What makes me feel alive? Happy? Exuberant? What gets me really excited about life? And how can I add more of that to my life? What are ways I can support myself on a daily … [Read more...] about Nourishment for the soul
The past few days have been pretty life changing. Nothing specific happened, but internally, some light bulbs have been going on. I feel like my entire emotional landscape has been flipped upside down and it's brilliant. I'll explain more in a few days, but first, I wanted to share today's epiphany with you. Because it's actually relevant to my … [Read more...] about Changing the world.
Yesterday on Twitter, I asked how other artists worked out their pricing and I got some brilliant advice back. Contrary to yesterday, I no longer think I'm going to drop my prices – I'm going to raise them. When I actually sit down and do the math on my art, I'm losing money. I may make back the cost of materials, but the time and effort? I never … [Read more...] about Pricing, Take 2
Back at the end of 2008, I declared 2009 the Year of Non Suck*. I still don't have my word or intentions for 2010, but I'll post as soon as I have them. *This is a lesson in asking for what you want, instead of just asking for what you don't want. 2009 did not suck per say. It didn't suck as much as say, 2006. 2006 was like one long kick in the … [Read more...] about 2009 – The year I learned to build umbrellas.
I've finally figured it out. I've finally figured out why the word "goal" makes me itch and why attempting to set goals makes me want to crawl back under the covers. First, a bit of background. Me and goals have been struggling for a while. I'd set goals half heartedly, and then watch myself fail to reach them. The "halfheartedly" thing should … [Read more...] about Why Goals Make Me Itch