I don’t talk about this much in this newsletter, but I love painting portraits. (Oddly enough, I talk about my love of portraiture all the time in my “real” life, but I don’t tend to bring it up often when I talk about my art practice. I’m not really certain why that is. One of those precious little dreams you get all secretive about, y’know?) The … [Read more...] about becoming “unlabelled”: the story behind my Kingston Prize painting
I'm reworking both my bio and my artist statement this week. My bio is embarrassingly out of date and my artist statement feels disconnected from the work that I'm trying to make. I've been journaling like mad and writing answers to questions like "What do I believe?" It's a difficult process, and painful in a way - revealing why you really … [Read more...] about Courage and fragility
When I was 10, I auditioned for the National Ballet School. There were 4 of us in this particular audition – myself, a girl I barely remember with fuzzy brown hair, a boy, and then The Girl. The Girl who danced like she had angel wings. I’d been dancing for 5 years and my teachers had high hopes for me – with perfect technique and the right … [Read more...] about Keep dancing your dance (& other things I wish I could have told a stranger 13 yrs ago)
(I wrote this months ago and filed it away in a random folder on my computer, titled "Manifesto". I just found it again and knew I had to share it.) I believe that there is a light inside of you, just waiting to shine. I believe that there is something inside you, dying to thrive. I believe that no matter what kind of shitty hand you’ve been … [Read more...] about Come on, show me your light.
I seem to be playing the comparison game with myself lately. You know - the one where you look at everyone else's success and tell yourself that you'll never measure up? I haven't played it in a while, but I'm not at my best lately, so I've got fewer defenses for when the gremlins start up. The other day I wrote about envy, and this new game … [Read more...] about The small successes are sometimes the most important
Lately, I've been having the same conversation again and again. For some reason, some people who know me think that I'm special. That I have some kind of superpower, or luxury, or something, that has made it possible for me to live my life on my own terms. That somehow, the Specialness Fairies have decided to bless me with all sorts of talent … [Read more...] about There Are No Specialness Fairies (or “Why you can live the life you want”)
We try so hard to stay small. We try to fit in, to do what's expected of us, to keep others happy. We stay quiet, never being too loud, too obnoxious. We confine ourselves, fit ourselves into tiny little compartments. We accept less, we do less, we hide our light under rocks and bushes. We are trying so hard not to get hurt. That's all we … [Read more...] about Small.
Life, you are brilliant. Of the $1000ish we need for Hannah to start dancing again, we've got $811. This means that her dance classes are completely paid for. She is officially going back to dance. Thank you, thank you, thank you. To everyone who has donated, shared, sent love and supported, I am immensely grateful. Hannah is on a different … [Read more...] about BOO YAH! Hannah’s classes are paid for. Now we just need shoes.
Hannah really wanted to share how grateful she is for all of your support, and so I asked her to write a little something to share with you. She's written it so beautifully, that's about all the introduction it needs. Take it away, Hannah. "I’ve tried to write this message a few times over now. Even now, as I have committed to this being my last … [Read more...] about A thank you from Hannah
When I posted about Hannah's story on Thursday evening, I was not expecting to have raised $300 within 6 hours. I knew that y'all were a generous, wonderful bunch, but you have floored even me. But you know what? It is so not about the money. Well, not completely. I mean, it's a really awesome tool for what we need to get done. And I'll admit, when … [Read more...] about “I’ve never been so excited to be alive.”
I'm dancing again.Very few people know that when I was younger, I used to dance all the time - I was a classically trained ballet dancer and I loved it. But then I got sick, and I had to let that passion go. I thought that door had closed forever. If someone had told me when I was 12 that in 9 years I'd be feeling much better and ballroom dancing … [Read more...] about Dancing my way back to art
There's something I'd like to tell you - something I don't often talk about, but now seem to have blazoned on the front page of my site: I want to change the world. I don't talk about it often because it triggers all sorts of stuck - like the "Who do you think you are?" stuck and the "You're ridiculous" stuck and the "No one cares about your … [Read more...] about A tiny dream