It’s been a long month. I’m still not sure if I’m ready to write this, ready to be here. I feel raw, vulnerable. Putting my Self, my words out in the world right now – it’s scary. There’s a hard knot in the pit of my stomach that only wants us to keep on hiding. [...]
Category Archives: Healing Emotional Wounds
Helplessness
March 23, 2010 – 12:02 pm
Oh helplessness. You and me have a long, and colorful history. You’ve been by my side, hanging out for over 9 years now. And I’m sure that you’ve served a good purpose, somewhere, somehow. I’m sure you’ve tried to protect me in some way. But it might be time for you to move along now, [...]
Asleep at the wheel.
December 16, 2009 – 7:38 pm
I’ve been awake since 3am, my mind churning. Every single cell in my body is yelling “Stop! Turn around! Go back!” On November 20th, I finished my job at the smoothie bar and health food store. I quit with the intention of following my passion, my art. Do you know how much art I’ve done [...]
Out of commission
October 21, 2009 – 10:07 am
Just as a head’s up, I’m pretty sick right now. I think I had a stomach ulcer that ruptured. There’s been a lot of pain, etc. I won’t go into the gory details, but I haven’t eaten in 2 days and I’m high on painkillers. As soon as I’m feeling better, I’ll be back on [...]
Redefining success
September 29, 2009 – 9:53 am
I’ve been thinking a lot about success lately, and it seems to be popping up everywhere – blogs I read, newsletters I get, to conversation topics on Twitter. Everywhere I look, something is reminding me that I’m aiming for success and asking me what my version of success is. Except I don’t have one. I [...]
Being miserable does not make you a better person.
September 23, 2009 – 8:37 am
You know what really gets on my nerves? (And it’s been annoying me more than ever lately.) The idea that somehow, playing small is noble. That living a life of quiet misery is somehow the truer, better, more humble path. I would like to call bullshit, thankyouverymuch. This has been said a million times before… [...]
One step forward, two steps back
September 15, 2009 – 8:30 am
Last Friday I was all “Rah rah rah! I’m ready to leave the cave and tackle life head on!” Today, I’m all “Good god, where’s the duvet and the cookies?!” Progress – I wish it was a straight line Time and time again, I am reminded by life that no, progress is not a straight [...]
I will never be Martha Stewart.
September 9, 2009 – 10:38 am
I was talking to Jesse last night, about something I can’t even remember, and I said something about how I didn’t feel like I had “it” together, and he responded with: “Well what the heck is “it” anyways?” I just sat there and moved my mouth for a few seconds unintelligently. I couldn’t even think [...]
Omfg, I move in a week!
July 18, 2009 – 11:34 am
I’m taking the world’s fastest break from painting my little heart out to tell you all that, OH MY GOD I MOVE IN A WEEK! Saturday, July 25th at 3am I am leaving St. Catharines and heading out to my new home. Holy shit. Holy shi-aaattt. I’m kinda freaking out. I still have 4.5 paintings [...]
