Asleep at the wheel.

I’ve been awake since 3am, my mind churning. Every single cell in my body is yelling “Stop! Turn around! Go back!” On November 20th, I finished my job at the smoothie bar and health food store. I quit with the intention of following my passion, my art. Do you know how much art I’ve done […]

Out of commission

Just as a head’s up, I’m pretty sick right now. I think I had a stomach ulcer that ruptured. There’s been a lot of pain, etc. I won’t go into the gory details, but I haven’t eaten in 2 days and I’m high on painkillers. As soon as I’m feeling better, I’ll be back on […]

Redefining success

I’ve been thinking a lot about success lately, and it seems to be popping up everywhere – blogs I read, newsletters I get, to conversation topics on Twitter. Everywhere I look, something is reminding me that I’m aiming for success and asking me what my version of success is. Except I don’t have one. I […]

Being miserable does not make you a better person.

You know what really gets on my nerves? (And it’s been annoying me more than ever lately.) The idea that somehow, playing small is noble. That living a life of quiet misery is somehow the truer, better, more humble path. I would like to call bullshit, thankyouverymuch. This has been said a million times before… […]

I will never be Martha Stewart.

I was talking to Jesse last night, about something I can’t even remember, and I said something about how I didn’t feel like I had “it” together, and he responded with: “Well what the heck is “it” anyways?” I just sat there and moved my mouth for a few seconds unintelligently. I couldn’t even think […]

Progress

I’ve been attempting to write a post for the past  2 days. I open up the page, stare at it for 30 seconds, and then promptly go do something else. I have a bad habit of multitasking whenever my brain gets stuck, which probably results in more brain stuck, considering its been two days and […]

Omfg, I move in a week!

I’m taking the world’s fastest break from painting my little heart out to tell you all that, OH MY GOD I MOVE IN A WEEK! Saturday, July 25th at 3am I am leaving St. Catharines and heading out to my new home. Holy shit. Holy shi-aaattt. I’m kinda freaking out. I still have 4.5 paintings […]

T-minus 32 days: Burnout

Ughhh. The exhaustion is starting to catch up with me. I woke up today and just could not bare to drag my butt out of bed. But drag my butt out I did. I’m working about 15-18 hours a day – start at 6 or 7am and go till anywhere from 10pm until 11:30pm. That […]

T-minus 33 days: Guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt

The title of this post should be read to the tune of the “Spam Song” by Monty Python. Or at least that’s how it sounded in my head as I typed it. Guilt is my old friend. Guilt, worry and shame are like the deranged, evil triumvirate that rule my life. So the paintings for […]

Happy Hour Fridays: I'm painting, I'm painting!

There is really only one major thing to celebrate this week, and that’s the fact that I’m painting. Every single day. For at least 3-4 hours. On Monday, I painted for 8 hours. Count ‘em – that’s EIGHT HOURS. How many hurrahs have I had this week? Ohhh, something like a million. Really though, I […]