In just over 2 weeks, I leave for France. Right now, I’m home with my family in Niagara, Ontario, spending time with them before I leave. I’m a little bit shell-shocked. Adaptability is not something I’m especially good at (Change?! What?!) and I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that I no longer [...]
Category Archives: Fear
In Good Company Project – Sharing stories of depression & anxiety
February 8, 2012 – 10:50 am
Anxiety and depression. Not something we all talk about around the dinner table. And yet, over a third of us have experienced one or the other, and often both. I’d like to introduce you to the In Good Company Project. This is a wonderful site run by my lovely friend, Kate Harding. In her words: [...]
The last stand: $363, love, fear and baby steps
January 20, 2012 – 10:52 am
This is it. Today’s the day. My tuition is due by the end of the day, and as the fancy pink graphic below shows, I’m just $363 from my goal. BAM! That feels good. As I wrote the other day, I’ve been working hard to make sure that my journey is one of love, [...]
Time to assimilate 2011
December 23, 2011 – 10:35 am
This has been one huge, crazy, scary year. It’s been amazing and terrifying and difficult all at the same time. I have had moments of blissful joy and moments of gut-wrenching sadness. I have grieved. I have dreamed. I have worked, hard, for what I want. And now as the year wraps up, I’m cranky. [...]
“Live the questions.”
December 2, 2011 – 6:49 am
“…I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to [...]
Moving with the fear
November 7, 2011 – 12:46 pm
I am terrified. I am terrified of this new adventure. I am terrified that I have nothing to offer anyone. I am terrified that my art and my words are meaningless. Worthless to anyone but me. These are old monsters. Strong. Ancient. Deep. These fears don’t want to let me put myself out there. These [...]
Sometimes, smaller is better.
November 2, 2011 – 11:00 am
I am exceptionally good at freaking myself out. One morning, I sat down and calculated the cost of my returning to France next year to continue studying. As I’d suspected, it’s around $20,000. Ay carumba. All those zeros still freak me out. And while it’s not that much considering the quality of education I’ll be [...]
Looking to the future
November 1, 2011 – 11:13 am
I was suddenly, radically clear the other day on how I want my business to evolve. Which is scary. And I promptly freaked out. Because when you have clarity, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from moving forward. You can see the next step right in front of you. You know it’s the right [...]
What no one ever tells you about creative passion
February 15, 2011 – 2:06 pm
There’s a lot of talk on the internet about finding your passion and turning that into a business. Obviously I think this is great, since I did it. But sometimes it can be misleading. Passion experts & self help gurus talk about finding the thing that makes you leap out of bed every morning, excited [...]
Dealing with money overwhelm
December 10, 2010 – 10:02 am
I haven’t posted in a few days because I’ve been having a meltdown a few fears. January 5th is fast approaching. That’s the day I’m informed whether I’ve been accepted into the program in France or not. Quite frankly (and surprisingly), I’m not worried about that part. It’s totally out of my hands, so there [...]
