This is it. Today’s the day. My tuition is due by the end of the day, and as the fancy pink graphic below shows, I’m just $363 from my goal. BAM! That feels good. As I wrote the other day, I’ve been working hard to make sure that my journey is one of love, [...]
This has been one huge, crazy, scary year. It’s been amazing and terrifying and difficult all at the same time. I have had moments of blissful joy and moments of gut-wrenching sadness. I have grieved. I have dreamed. I have worked, hard, for what I want. And now as the year wraps up, I’m cranky. [...]
“…I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to [...]
I am terrified. I am terrified of this new adventure. I am terrified that I have nothing to offer anyone. I am terrified that my art and my words are meaningless. Worthless to anyone but me. These are old monsters. Strong. Ancient. Deep. These fears don’t want to let me put myself out there. These [...]
I am exceptionally good at freaking myself out. One morning, I sat down and calculated the cost of my returning to France next year to continue studying. As I’d suspected, it’s around $20,000. Ay carumba. All those zeros still freak me out. And while it’s not that much considering the quality of education I’ll be [...]
I was suddenly, radically clear the other day on how I want my business to evolve. Which is scary. And I promptly freaked out. Because when you have clarity, there is absolutely nothing stopping you from moving forward. You can see the next step right in front of you. You know it’s the right [...]
There’s a lot of talk on the internet about finding your passion and turning that into a business. Obviously I think this is great, since I did it. But sometimes it can be misleading. Passion experts & self help gurus talk about finding the thing that makes you leap out of bed every morning, excited [...]
I haven’t posted in a few days because I’ve been having a meltdown a few fears. January 5th is fast approaching. That’s the day I’m informed whether I’ve been accepted into the program in France or not. Quite frankly (and surprisingly), I’m not worried about that part. It’s totally out of my hands, so there [...]
I’ve been having a hard time the past few days. It’ seems to be hitting me in phases that I could be spending 3 months in France next year. Doing this, applying for this program – it’s hard creatively, but more than anything, it’s doing my head in. This is a big goal. This is [...]
Lately, I’ve been having the same conversation again and again. For some reason, some people who know me think that I’m special. That I have some kind of superpower, or luxury, or something, that has made it possible for me to live my life on my own terms. That somehow, the Specialness Fairies have decided [...]
