Recently, I was afraid someone was going to prevent me from participating in something because of my CFS. In the end, the decision was left up to me, but it pushed all of my buttons. It was like I imploded. Something inside collapsed, and all I could feel was sad, discouraged, listless. Sometimes I forget [...]
The more I learn about painting, the more I realize that I am woefully inadequate to do it. I think almost everyone is. There’s just so much to know, so much craft behind creating a half decent painting, let alone a masterpiece. The more I read and the more I study, the wider the abyss. [...]
I woke up this morning, early. It happens sometimes when my sleep is drug induced – I was in so much pain yesterday I had to take sleeping pills last night to get any kind of relief. I pottered around for a few hours, did some web design work and then wandered into the living [...]
Well, my stomach finally seems to be healing. Between the trifecta of omeprazole, the probiotics and the digestive enzymes, as well as a carefully monitored diet, it should have all the help it needs to start setting itself to rights again. My body, on the other hand, has been left in a much worse state. [...]
Ughhhh, hungryyyy. Welcome to Day 5 of Total Bed Rest. I’ve been living on the BRAT* diet for the past 5 days, excepting an unfortunate foray into the world of salad. *BRAT – bananas, rice, apples and toast. Mostly toast. I’m bored senseless. I’m an absolutely awful patient. Unless I’m so sick that all I [...]
Dear Stomach, We don’t seem to be getting along right now, do we? You’ve been kinda hurt-ey since February, and trying to get my attention with some small aches and pains and I wasn’t a very good owner, and I ignored you. I kept putting off going back to the doctor and getting more of [...]
Attempted another painting from life today – this time just a little 4″x6″, of a seashell. I ended up having to walk away because the paint was just getting sloppy – once it’s dried a bit, I can go back and add some details. Not entirely sure how to avoid that working alla prima, but [...]
This is mostly just a post to laugh at myself. Not in a mean way, but in a loving, compassionate way. I am so not used to painting from life. Drawing from life, I’m good with. It’s how I taught myself to draw in the first place. But with very few exceptions, I have usually [...]
You know, I started writing this post about liberating myself and living an unconventional life, but it just started to feel really…I don’t know. Weird. Contrived perhaps. Anyways, I got to the end and thought “What a piece of crap.” And so now I’m writing this post instead, hoping that it ends up [...]
