My oldest friend called me last night. For fifteen years, we’ve been friends, practically sisters. My little sister considers her a second big sister. I think of her little sister as my other little sister. Today, my friend’s sister is in hospital. Kait’s always had health problems – epilepsy and a million others. There have [...]
Tags: good vibes, healing, hope, love
The more I explore my directions in art, and my stuck around being seen, the more I realize that I’ve effectively creatively muzzled myself the past 2 years. My Artistic Direction: The Beginning Just under three years ago, I was painting my little behind off. I’d finally decided that art was going to be my [...]
Tags: Art, conceptual art, direction, marketing
I seem to have lost my direction. In fact, I think that’s been a huge part of the problem of my lack of productivity the past year. I have no idea where I’m going. True, I’ve got my self imposed schooling, but right now, I’m only in the anatomy section, which while interesting, isn’t a [...]
Tags: Art, direction, landscapes, painting, portraiture
Apparently, I have issues with it. I never even realized, except when I was writing in my journal this morning, I wrote, out of nowhere, “There’s lots I could be doing to market myself, but I’m choosing not to.” And I sat and stared at that sentence for a solid 5 minutes. Because: 1. I [...]
Tags: being seen, Fear, invisible, marketing
Yesterday, I experienced my first hurricane (ish – it ended up being a bad storm instead). Jesse and I walked down to the docks and stood in the rain, feeling the wind lashing at our clothing. We got absolutely soaking wet, and cooled off for the first time in weeks. I absolutely love the rain. [...]
Tags: Art, custom artwork, rain, routine, self nurturing
Yesterday morning, I was pretty much having a meltdown. I was so tired and couldn’t bear to face another day of work. I knew that if things continued like this, I wouldn’t be doing anything, let alone working in 2 months time. I’d be practically comatose. But I made a choice – that if it [...]
So I’ve worked two shifts at my new job and, while my coworkers are great and my boss is a good, intelligent person I can respect, I’m already starting to dread the job itself. I make smoothies. Basically for 6-8 hours straight. I’m on my feet the whole time, and it’s already taking it’s toll [...]
Tags: Art, making a living, Money, sex and cash
Today is my first day of work. In about 3 hours, I officially become a working girl. Last night, I went to bed at 10:30pm to get a solid night’s sleep in anticipation of a long day. Unfortunately, it seems that the Universe had other plans. I tossed and I turned and I just couldn’t [...]
Okay well not actually. I mean, it’s not like I’m on a boat or something. But I am near the sea, so doesn’t that count? (Side note – it smells like the seaside early in the morning here and it almost breaks my heart I love it so much.) But I am feeling rather more [...]
Tags: Art, change, discouragement, hope
I’ve officially joined the ranks of the working world! And I actually feel okay about this one, surprisingly. I’m probably only going to work evenings and weekends, which is awesome because it means I’ve got all week to work on my own business and do my own thing without having to worry about making the [...]
Tags: art and money, gapingvoid, hugh macleod, job, recuperation, rest, sex and cash theory
